I am flailing. It's 11:30 am, I have a headache, I feel dehydrated, and I just want to go to bed. Yesterday, I worked from home. I never left my bed. These days, I'm feeling a lot like this:
I'm not sure what's brought about this sudden surge of depression, but I have a lot of guesses. First, I haven't been to the gym since last Thursday. I know, I know! I love the gym. I love working out. But between work hours (which are not convenient for gym hours) and all the traveling I've been doing, it just hasn't happened. And now that it's been a week, I. Don't. Want. To. Go. The only things that interest me at all are 1) skating or 2) muay thai, and those are hard to come by. (Derby is only on Saturdays and Sundays.)
Second, I can now say that telling yourself that feeling no repercussions on the days you eat SAD-food does not mean that those choices are without consequences. Over the weekend, I went to LA, where I generally ate fine, but had some desserts after 2 meals. Which means the sugar monster reared it's ugly head and on Monday, I had birthday cake at school. BIRTHDAY CAKE. Not only was it sugar-filled, but I broke my 3-month no gluten streak. Suffice it to say, while I felt fine at the time, and shortly after, it's now 3 days later and I do not feel fine.
Finally, it's dark out. All the time. It's dark when I come to work. It's dark when I leave the office. I have no windows. And it's only November. I'm really concerned that I may get Seasonal Affective Disorder. I've lived in cold climates before, but I've never felt quite so down.
So yeah. SAD food + SAD weather = SAD Tricia. And I'm not sure what to do about it. For now, I'm focusing on rehydrating, eating clean, and forcing myself to get out of bed. Any other ideas?